ash-jules

im losing u , i can tell with every passing day pieces of u forget me , forget how close we used to be i wasn't able  to tell at first , u were always lacking when it came to attention or showing u cared but then slowly u stopped calling as often , i didn't need to worry about avoiding your calls then u started to get sick of chasing me , just like i once did with u and u started to love her mostly for connivence then anything else but that doesn't take away the pain of knowing that u have a new family now when i noticed i was losing u i held on tight and started to chase u again leaving behind every promise i made myself

So i decide to go on google and look up my old teacher mrs. Vlachovic-Cooney. As you can tell it was easy to find her names like that arent really common. Mrs V.C  was my teacher from grade 6 and she was my favorite of all my teachers. We had so many good times after school i would tell her everything and she was always there for me. Also she was young around 26-27 ,so she wasn't one of those old bitchy teachers who never understands anything and says " we didn't have  insert  new age technology here" and you feeling like replying with "well that just sucks for you doesn't it". I found her on facebook  first of course it had a picture of her

 I woke up and looked around  groggily then remembered the day and threw myself out of bed smiling with all teeth showing. Mom walked by and said "you look like your an add for crest whiting strips". I rolled my eyes and threw  on my favorite outfit  a black and blue striped halter top and my jean mini (the shirt I had made at fashion design camp and made me feel wonderful, the skirt i got in the states when I lived with my aunt Kelly ), then did my makeup ,I loved doing this at moms since she was the only one who let me (little did I know deirdre and the others were just trying to make me happy). When I finished getting ready I ran out my ro

dont you miss the times when the smile on your face wasn't fake when the people around you honestly cared how you felt dont you miss the times when you were allowed to break down and cry when people didn't consider that a sign of weakness or being spoiled cause lately im noticing most smiles are fake the ties between people seem to be light and just there people dont allow themselves to break down cause they are scared of what other will think cause they know people around them consider them to be lucky and shouldn't complain i miss those everyday of my life

You may not be perfect others but in my eyes your the best there is everything that could be considered bad i think since its a part of u it must be perfection, i love you i know that much is true i want you to be my everything, my one and only and my special someone and i know we could be so great if you let us try we could be magic baby cause nobody else could make me feel this way You make all the pain seem to go away though it still comes back it doesn't seem as important, when im near you in a room full of people i only notice that you and me are there Even though people dont approve your the only thing on my mind morning noon and nig

we have had our struggles and fights i have had my doubts and i bet u have to but in the end we will always b tight no matter who comes through our lives, no matter how many fights we have i have tried to always telll u the truth , although i know we both lie if the time should come one day that u ask me to leave , i will cause its what u wish but i will always b in the wings waiting if u need me and if the time comes where i ask for u to leave i hope u do the same and wait until i need you if you get tired of waitng i will understand if u leave but please never forget me for if some reason i stop waiting i know one thing for sure

maybe water is thicker then blood maybe your best friend really isnt the best maybe the ones u hated should b the ones u love maybe u need to stop trying so hard cause its just not working although really when it comes down to the truth , blood will always b there your best friend can still b the best when things change the ones u hate may hate u also dont ever give up cause people in this world need you